Tuesday, November 15, 2011
Imagine you were an anomaly
No matter where you go.
That your actions, emotions,
And rules were all decided
Before you ever knew.
Imagine having to wear a different mask,
If you even wanted to be seen.
That you were only amazing for so long,
But not long enough to be let into
The heart of a beloved scene.
Imagine if I was different
And had the body of Jacob.
That I had my personality,
Would you see me then?
Would you cry a little more
if I didn’t care for you in the same way?
Imagine watching the one you love,
Be in love with someone else.
Having all you want to say,
But holding your tongue,
So their happiness can run.
Imagine if you lost me,
What would you say?
Imagine if I was gone
And you could never
get that chance to say,
“I love you more then my dear aunt May.”
Imagine if you saw me hanging from a rope,
Because of something you said?
Of things you said and did,
Of the choices that you made
When your head was ignorant of pain and shame.
Imagine watching someone taking a man’s life
Just so they could get his ride.
And you just watched it unfold,
Because only a fool
Would attempt otherwise.
Imagine if you met someone,
And all you could think was,
“When’s the last time I’m going to see you?”
Because you never could afford to get comfortable
To waking up and seeing the same face.
Imagine watching all your goals fail
Because you weren’t given the chance to dream.
To jump up
In celebration of triumphs,
Only to have no one around.
Imagine being afraid of belonging,
Because you’re afraid of losing.
To force yourself into isolation,
Because you forgot what everything else
Truly felt like.
Imagine the happiest you have ever seen someone,
Was when you are leaving.
And all you ever wanting,
Is seeing that happiness
When you make it back.
Imagine living most your life,
In the confines of your own imagination.
Because in the real world,
A person like you
Doesn’t really exist.
Imagine being such an anomaly,
That not even you know who you are.
And imagine waking up from a dream,
Just to return to a nightmare.