A Trial by Fire

"Flying" by *MindTuber

For anyone following me on Tumblr, this may not exactly be a "new" piece, but it's too relevant to leave to one blog alone. 

Life often leaves us in scenarios too dangerous to stay. It's unfortunate that we may stay in them regardless. To that point, I continue writing and fleshing out why it is that such pain is all too enjoyable. Yet, regardless, the heart which beats in my chest can't possibly hold out against such misery for long. 

Maybe that's why the title of this piece makes so much sense...

"Fuck..."

The times, they flew away
With the sanity I’d been holding
For two people, me and you

It’s no walk in the park
Only a jury by fire, with acts
Like you never knew

Tired thoughts, drift away
To the sea containing hope
Or painful years lost

With one word, it’s all lost
And, no, I can’t take the tears
Or the unbelievable cost

~Chris

A Heart's Dream

"Dreaming"

A heart in one hand, a dream in the other. The dream once rested upon the branches of the largest tree Eden had ever seen. The heart, barely identifiable from the scars it displays.  

 But a heart and a dream, nonetheless, exist I'm such proximity that the latter consoles the former and the former teaches the latter. In such a way, a life is formed; a bond is shared. Love would be soon to follow.  

I guess, not love in the traditional sense, but a friendship lingering on the fence and tilting ever so slightly to one side. Knowing the joys of Eden, the dream could never accept anything else; knowing of the heart's pain, it couldn't bear to indulge in anything more than the friendship, of course.  

"What a shame," thought the heart, "what I have to give is more precious than these scars our the branches of any tree. The paradise which runs out my veins trumps any sensation a dream could ever want." But the dream doesn't see. No, only the clouds grace its vision; memories slant its future.  

"It is time," said the dream one day, "to return home." And with that, their time was lost and a hand was left empty. Unable to bear such a trial, the heart removed the stitches governing its scars, in hopes to join the dream in the end.  

 But, no, no heart nor dream is to be found. 

Going nowhere

"Lost" by iNeedChemicalX

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This is my new piece. I am feeling very confused at where I am in my life right now. I'm at a rough spot in my life and don't really know what to do or where to go from here. So, I am just lost in my thoughts.

Have you every been in a situation like this? Please comment and let me know. Tell me your experience with this. I would love to know I am not the only one who gets lost some times.

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“Going nowhere”

Can you feel it?

(We're going nowhere)

That feeling

Of running

But you can never find it?

Yet you still try...

...To run...

...To jump...

...To crawl...

Just to get there

To that one goal

Maybe it's a spot on a team

An “A” on a paper

Maybe your other half

You always feel so close

But just out of reach.

That look in your eyes

Of loss

Giving up and losing the fight

It's almost over

Your eyes close

Then you just drift...

...Drift off into blind bliss...

Give up

We live our life,

As if we are ready to die,

But it's almost over.

You don't want to give up—

Not yet—

Not when what you desire is so close

Signal the sirens

Wake up!

FIGHT

For what you want

For what you need

You may feel like you're going nowhere

But that's only if you give up the fight.



~Aulene

~APLIW



Faded, into revealing.

"You're not who you were. "

Friendships change and you find out why certain friends ever stuck around. A lot of times, not all the time, they are staying for greed.


So look up! Its not that you aren't enough for someone to stay, it's that you are more than enough. Whether they only be into their own self interests or not. You are of so much worth that you were chosen as part of their life even if for a short time. The way I see it, they would've chosen anyone. But you are special. Whether that be a nuisance to you for being a pushover or not it's still the same.

Don't stick around getting your hopes up for these people, no, but go with the flow and believe that you are still strong, with or without someone by your side.

Bells

"Solo of Bells In Autumn" by Viv Leoni

At Ohio State, a bell tower stands near the center of campus. Every hour, it rings out beautifully through the air.

A few days ago, I walked through downtown Cincinnati with my dad and heard the same type of bells. The purity of such sounds is marvelous, and I'm truly surprised I haven't written something about them sooner.

"En la hora..."

Bells toll in the distance

Another hour has passed

Ding-dong

Ding-dong

Ding-dong

Ding-dong

Life flies with the time

No doubt could ever enter

An hour closer to death

But an hour still alive…

            …Nonetheless.

Ding-dong

Ding-dong

Ding-dong

Ding-dong

The clear sound brings tears

To eyes that’ve lived the hour

To the future all terrors flee

Forth through time…

            …The bells toll.

Ding-dong

Ding-dong

Ding-dong

Ding-dong

Fate drives me.

~Chris

Who I am

The piece truly speaks for itself.

"Life"

I’m the poet who dreams of being a god

The man who dives too deep into unconsciousness

            The philosopher seeking the hands of death

I’m the wanderer who’s found pure gold

            The agnostic who’s seen the answer to life

            The last person to accept his own Fate

I’ve traveled the world in a breath

            And have reached the peak of who I wish to be

                                    …but still…

I am nothing without you.





Fate drives me.

~Chris

A loaded god complex

A everyone. This week's been a little slow on posts due to the hectic school schedules all of us our facing.

But, fear not! More great fiction is only a pen's stroke away.

Photo courtesy of Kristen's Photography

"A Mindset Un-befitting for the Fire in My Soul"

I awoke from a dream, only to find life less fulfilling.

I escaped from my mind, only to find that everything'd been figured out.

I wished for a way to simply say all the words that I thought.

I realized that, at every turn, I cannot.

Some things are better left to the hands of fiction.

This god complex could be an example of that.

Greed, wrath, and lust all consume my being.

Hell, living has lost all meaning.

Instead, I use to exist purely to find knowledge.

Omniscience doesn’t affect my mind.

Yet, now, I find myself living for better reasons.

For love has touched my crown.

As arrogant as I’ve always been, the curse had run me through.

To think that I'd never known who I am.

I just can’t imagine it now.

No, I just can’t imagine it now…


Fate drives me.

~Chris

Food for thought 11/05/2010

For the very few who use to read the pieces I posted on Facebook, these assortment of thoughts are surely nothing new. In fact, two years have made the original subject completely out-dated. The message still stands though, and, as I try to express daily, the past shares many parallels with the present.

Usando solamente mi corazón,

Vivo por nada,
Nadie.

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Every lie starts with the truth that I do not care at all.


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If there is a heart inside my chest,
Then let it break.
If I must feel so lonely,
Then let others feel free.
If my happiness means nothing,
Then I'll just be me.

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Do you see the man
Staring out behind these eyes?
He's pining for that one girl
He sees everyday.
There's no rhyme nor reason
To the mentality he wishes was shared.
Yet, there's no chance
That such hopes will come true.
Do you see the tears
Forming behind his eyes?

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Shattered Lies,
Raise them above the truth.
I cannot live up
To life's expectations.

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Here I am
There I lied
To you
Because you knew
I was petrified
To hear your voice
And see your face
If only
I could make sense
Of this goose chase.

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Giving back to this world, I give solely my soul for you to take.






Fate drives me.

~Chris



Patience

There is so much more that I wish I could tell you 

It feels like I am keeping secrets from you 

I want to tell you everything that I am feeling

It’s exploding from every fiber of my being

I can’t say it, it’s on tip of my tongue

Every moment I’m around you

My reality falls apart

And you are the only thing precious to me

Are these feelings real? 

Should I trust them? 

Or just toss away this love I know? 

It seems that everything is falling into place

Am I dreaming? 

Do you see what I see? 

Do you feel what I feel? 

I pray every night 

Asking God if you are the one

I can hear him say 

“Patience my son” 

It is so hard

But I am willing 

I will wait, I will always wait for you.