A Heart's Dream

"Dreaming"

A heart in one hand, a dream in the other. The dream once rested upon the branches of the largest tree Eden had ever seen. The heart, barely identifiable from the scars it displays.  

 But a heart and a dream, nonetheless, exist I'm such proximity that the latter consoles the former and the former teaches the latter. In such a way, a life is formed; a bond is shared. Love would be soon to follow.  

I guess, not love in the traditional sense, but a friendship lingering on the fence and tilting ever so slightly to one side. Knowing the joys of Eden, the dream could never accept anything else; knowing of the heart's pain, it couldn't bear to indulge in anything more than the friendship, of course.  

"What a shame," thought the heart, "what I have to give is more precious than these scars our the branches of any tree. The paradise which runs out my veins trumps any sensation a dream could ever want." But the dream doesn't see. No, only the clouds grace its vision; memories slant its future.  

"It is time," said the dream one day, "to return home." And with that, their time was lost and a hand was left empty. Unable to bear such a trial, the heart removed the stitches governing its scars, in hopes to join the dream in the end.  

 But, no, no heart nor dream is to be found. 

A Dream

Hey guys it's Sabrina Black this weeks piece is about finding that calm safe place where you can escape from the fractures of life. It's created by your mind it's what ever you want it to be. But how could you love such a place and be so alone.

“Safe Place”

Close your eyes with me and take a journey to your heart and soul. Your secrets that you keep locked up are unwelcome. We won't need those barriers of life where we're going.
Take my hand and fly with me; we are going to a Safe Place. Now think of somewhere you would yearn to get to.
Keep your eyes closed now. Picture a landscape of green meadows fresh with dew; wild flowers and daises are abundant.
Look over there at the mountains you've created; a giant waterfall flowing into a river into a lake full of fish. Look to your left a weeping willow welcomes you to hide in the curtains of its leaves, to read in or sleep as you listen to the birds’ songs ring through the sky. Hear that approaching us with great speed? It’s a herd of horses here to bring you nothing but awe.
But something is missing, a friend, a love. How could you be so alone in a dream of something you love?

Sabrina Black APLIW

Falling into Place

"Climb" by ~mickeybob00

Hey guys it's Aulene!!!
This week's piece is about me and how my life is really crazy right now with graduating, getting a job, getting a car, moving, etc... (You get the point.) I hope I am writing to those who understand my struggle in this.

 Leave a comment below telling me your situation like this.

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Falling into Place

Once in a blue moon
You are blessed with a gift

Some choose to follow this gift
To see where it leads

Others choose to stay
Stay in their safe place

Some fall into something great
And don't know what to do with it

Some are pushed into situations
And fall because they are too scared to jump


That's how I am
Hi, My name is Aulene

I am no different than you
Or anyone else

I am willing to admit it
I am scared

I fell into this situation called life
And I don't know what to do

I was pushed into this place called the world
And I am lost

I have fallen in this place
And I don't know how to get up

I can see the end of my struggle
But it's far away

The light is at the top of this cavern
And I am at the dust covered bottom

I just want to give up
But then again, I want to climb

I want to get to the top of this cavern
And say "I did it!"

So I took my first step
And so began my journey

One step at a time
Things are FINALLY falling into place




~Aulene

~APLIW


Tragic Loss

Hey guys it's Sabrina Black this week has been emotionally scaring my great grandma died recently but this piece is related not only to my loss but for everyone who has gotten a horrible call that at the other end all you is their gone. Just know not to give all hope up and a friend told me that she would like me to be happy and not grieve.
Enjoy!

“The Call”

Every summer I see you
Your loving face
The sound of your voice comforts me
It's the song of love ringing through the sky
You held me as a baby
Now you watched me grow
You whispered in my ear that you’re proud of me
The hugs you give are warm they keep me safe from harm

As time goes on we grow old
You just turned 92 and still strong as an ox
Then you whispered: I feel pain my body is weak and slowing down
My time is coming for me to be with him
Those are the words that pound in my heart
Knowing the time is coming
I don't want to believe that you’re leaving

I want you to stay here holding me
Kissing me on the forehead goodnight
Spending the day with laughs
Letting you go is hard on me and my family
The beeps of the hospital bed finally rang
You lay so peacefully sleeping as we watched you
Day by day waiting for the moment to cry and weep

March 30th Easter Sunday at 10:20 am
You breathed your last breath
*ring *ring *ring
Of the telephones
A voice on the other end
Whispers: She's gone.

RIP Nanny

Signs

I see signs all around me. I've been seeing them in my every day life recently and it got me encouraged to wright this small piece. Enjoy!

       The are all around us. They are always there but rarely seen. Hardly ever heard. They are the words which we read in books. They are the noises which we hear in the air around us. They are not always easily recognized, yet still always there. These things which are all around us are signs. These signs determine our every day life. They help us make choices. They can change those choices. They can also change our lives. They can change our lives for the better, or they can change our lives for the worst. It all depends on the sings we choose to follow. So, which signs will you follow? Which signs will you let determine your every day life? Your choice in anything can lead you to a good outcome. But be warned, for it also can lead you to a bad one. Choose wisely.

Deadly Thoughts

Hello guys. I apologize for the long period of time it took to post one of my pieces. My internet was turned off. But i finally have it ready. I hope you guys enjoy it!

   
        My life has changed. My life is still changing. I've gone through hell. I've felt pain. I've seen my own blood. Because of my recently hellish life, I've had thoughts. Thoughts of things I never knew I could think of. Things I never wanted to think of. I've suppressed these thoughts for as long as I possibly could. I tried to keep these thoughts within the recesses of my mind. I've done my best to keep them locked away. But they have escaped. These dark thoughts of mine, which were once locked away, now control my life. I fear they may do worse. I fear they may end my life. I fear for the worst for that is all which is possible for me anymore. What is to become of me? Will I lose the last few things that matter to me in my life? Will  I leave my friends behind? What will they think? And what of the love of my life? Am I truly willing to hurt him so much, simply to ease my own suffering? There is no telling what I will do. There is no telling what will happen to me. These deadly thoughts in my mind have made me their victim. I have no control over my thoughts as I once did. Will things ever be so easy for me again? Will my life stay in a state of depression as it has? There's no way I can know for sure. Although these deadly thoughts of mine lean towards continued depression. I can only hope to be rid of these deadly thoughts. It is the only way I can continue my own life.

A Battle of Chaos

Hey guys it's Sabrina Black this weeks piece is about a couple who is facing a difficult time in there relationship where the character Hate doubts everything about his wife Love believes about him I hope you guys like it! Make sure to check out our book Life In Fiction: Words from the Underrated!

“Battle of Love and Hate”

Love is strong, and hope leads her path.
Hate cannot see the light in anything in the world; his world is the dark

Love: I love you more than anything in the world.
Hate: What is so important about me? Nothing about me could attract love…
Love: I care more about you more than anyone else.
Hate: Why do you care? I'm a horrible person. I don’t care about anyone or anything.
Love: Your words pierce my heart, but I've been by your side all your life. How could I not care?
Hate: I don't need you anymore nothing ever felt right with you.
Love: Why do you make me spill tears and hurt me? Does this satisfy you to see me this way?
Hate: I'm broken; if I tried to end my life no one would care
Love: I do care! Get it through your thick skull! I'm yours forever!
Hate: I don’t believe in anything you say anymore, love. I’m done listening to you.
Love: You’ve been blinded by brokenness too long to realize that you have a life and love in front of you.

Wasting life away in the past can make a soul cold.
But a friend, life, helping you move forward, looking at the horizon, can save you from suicide.


One friend = One saved life

~Sabrina Black

Depression.

"Depression is a state of mind. But depression is also as real as the grass is green and the sky is blue. Anything can cause depression in this messed up world and at many times you can feel so alone, while everyone else is a light burning brightly without a care in the world. But if you have someone to comfort you, someone who doesn't think you're crazy or dramatic. Someone who can stick around through the bad. If you've met one of those gems, don't let them go, for they are rare And as a word of encouragement, your light may be out for now, but it will come back; usually lights shine brighter after they have been out for some time."



-Kristen Nicholl

Good bye

Hey guys its Sabrina Black this weeks piece really been rough to write so to speak, Love has its ways of breaking every inch of who you are. Dont waste your time on giving someone a second chance to a person that's not worth it this person in my life has hurt me for the last time. Enjoy and check out our book! Life in fiction words from the underrated!


“Last Time”

Both of us were stuck in the sorrow that we created.
We needed each other more than anything in the world.
The love between us that once was lost was found.
I saved both of us from a certain fate by calling you mine.
Our love grew stronger with each passing moment.

The cold bitterness of your past turned you cold and heartless.
Letting go wasn't an option for you.
Brokenness arrested your iced heart, forever sealed it with a cage of sorrow.
You can never be found; hope doesn't exist.

Words of the end came out of your tongue, stabbing knives into my heart.
You poisoned my heart with your false love, which was just a way to make you feel something again.
My love for you will forever be in the far distance in a steel box that can never be opened again.
Never.

~Sabrina Black
APLIW

Something of a Tribute

"Memories Past" by zearyu

Earlier this week, my mind drifted to the past. A day in high school erupted among my many thoughts, and I remembered a girl I once knew. She was talented and challenged me with every chance. Without my past insecurities, it is clear that I loved her then and somewhat now, although in a way more complicated than words could plainly place so shortly.

As with many complex emotions, I decided to put it to poem. It was nice to use such a feeling as inspiration again, but I think it'd be even nicer to have her in my life.

"Rachel"

There was once a girl who fell for me,
And clung to each word I wrote. 
Her mind was beautiful;
Her body was of more than note.

To her affected thoughts and coy glance
I had done nothing but shied
Away, believing I wasn’t good enough.
To that, presently, I wish I’d lied.

What a rarity does exist in someone
So pure, lovely, and kind.
I protest my past self entirely,
Now knowing what I’ll never find.

The past. Where's it gone?

~Chris

Out of the Blue

"Suicide Obsession" by loveneedstragedy

Hey guys it's Aulene!!!

This week's piece is a little morbid. I am writing this because I have a friend named Avery who committed suicide this past week (which is why I did not post last week), and it is all I can really think about. It just caught me and everyone else off guard. It was an upsetting event that really stuck with me.

Have you guys ever been in this situation? It's comforting to know that I am not the only one.

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Out of the Blue

So here I am

Sitting alone

Just thinking

About how awesome

How awesome that gun looks

I just want to end it

I don't like my life

I can't handle what I am given,

which is...

Nothing

I am given nothing

Nothing to keep me here

No reason to move on

No reason for another beating heart

I'm just a waste of air and space

No one loves me

And no one will miss me

So here I sit

Just thinking

And I think I want to stop thinking

Life isn't worth it

So much darkness

Not enough light

So I will find my own light

On the other side

I love you with all my heart

You were always there

You were the best  person I have ever known

A free spirit

A kind heart

A true heart

I will miss you

I notice you

I never took you for granted

I looked forward to...

To seeing you every day

Because you helped me

You made me smile

You always made me feel good

Even if you yourself,

Were at rock bottom

Always smiling

No one would have guessed

How bad you hated it all

And how bad you wanted to end it

It just caught me...

Off guard

It was so random

Just so...

Out of the blue

R.I.P Avery Moras

~Aulene

~APLIW

Because there's no running from life

"My Beautiful Sinking Ship" by vbagiatis

I could've fled long ago. Yes, I recognize this now. There was no hope once, and, again, I'm stomping on solid ground, just to get deeper. Futures are uncertain, but these gashes are a little less subtle. The knife could've been cleaner, but, no, the feeling couldn't have been sweeter.

I'm drowning, slowly but surely. Nonetheless, my eyes close beneath the warm water of a shower more comforting than her. These “cursed” thoughts of her...Loving her still would be easier, I know. Holding her in my arms would bring so much joy, I know. Yet, I can't give in. No, I mustn't give in.

I could've left these thoughts long ago. Still, nothing's happier than missing what I once had. Nothing's more concrete than the pain I feel now that it's no longer relevant. Alas, I'm alone on a sinking ship. The solid ground's given out. The water has dried up over my head. And, still, I stand at the captain's will whistling a final tune for my latent demise as the towns in the distant catch fire from the bridges I've burned. 

The Ultimate Puzzle

Hey guys, it's Jonathan. This is just a short piece I wrote while doing some hard thinking. Enjoy.


Life is a puzzle. There are so many pieces to put together. So many mistakes to be made while trying to put those pieces together. For some pieces of this puzzle it's as simple as taking two steps ahead of you. For other pieces, however, it seems impossible to find its place. Life has so many problems. But so many solutions as well. Sometimes pieces of this great puzzle are lost. Sometimes they are damaged. Can the lost pieces be found again? Can the damaged ones be fixed? The choice in that matter is yours to make, and yours alone. Do you need help with the rest? After all, life is the ultimate puzzle.

So I just want

I just want it to be fall and winter all year 'round. Spring and summer don't make me sad, but they remind me of times I don't want to remember. (To an extent, winter and fall both consist of deaths in the family and summer in my life has had its moments that were grand.) But, really, in fall I feel so free and ready to prepare for the winter. Winter, oh yes, the first day is my birthday, so of course I'm going to like it, right?
It feels so surreal to watch as the snow falls quietly sitting inside a house, school, or car looking out.
I like to bundle up and head out in it. I don't even mind driving in it, it doesn't scare me.
I really just embrace it. I love reminiscing about building snowmen with my  younger brother and sledding with our friends. Even the cold days without snow are nice just because home is where your sanctuary is; the warmth brings you back with your loved ones.
Now I'm just blabbing about the seasons, But hear me out, I feel need to explain since everyone is "dying for summer break" and "sick of this cold". By the way, we're in Ohio for pete's sake, its bound to be cold in winter like its supposed to be.
But I love fall too, it is the perfect mix of cool and warm, memories of baking with mom and grandma.
Taking walks for hours, without reason or cause. And of course, the trip to Tennessee that created the best week of my life.

Journey

Hey guys it's Sabrina Black, this weeks piece is about looking back at all the places, people, memories one has encountered in their lives. Life a journey worth living even if times are sore on the heart.


Photograph
Images of faces lie before me in the empty room I used to call my own, reminding me of the hardships I have endured; reminding me of all the memories I've shared with the ghosts of my past. Some moments in time make my heart soar as clips play in my head. As it plays, it freezes on the moments of pain, making tears of the past spill out of my eyes and haunting me with my regret. Funny how one photograph can take you back in time to a story from years ago.

Sabrina Black

New Developments

Between midterms and unwanted tragedies, my focus has been spread far too thin. As such, my writing has been put on the back-burner until this week (which happens to be spring break). Hopefully, my distractions will be small enough to continue my regular posts.

Although a little new, this week's piece comes from some small apathy drawn from failed relationships. I'm guessing I'm not the only one who's felt this way, but, even if I am, it's still better than feeling nothing.

Bruised Hands

A blood stain on a white rug.

A crimson tide to flush from my hand.

The anger dwells deep in the memories.

Yet, I'm completely barred from taking a stand.

Small whiffs of her scent.

Small brush of her skin.

I've run into a rut.

I know my patience's run thin.

I'm out of my last hope.

So, I'll smash this wall.

Let it break instead of me.

From this day forward,

I'll lack enough empathy to fall.  

~Chris

Destiny

Hey guys, it's Jonathan. I know I haven't posted in a while, but I finally have my piece. It's a short piece that I'm sure you can all probably understand. 

I hope you guys like it!!

What is destiny?

They say a destiny cannot be changed. It cannot be chosen. It is given. But is that really true? To live by a destiny made by someone else is to be controlled. To not have free will. No one wants to be controlled. So why should one choose? To go by a given destiny and to be controlled? Or to make your own destiny and live freely? I choose to create my own. I create my own so that I may be my own person. So that I may not be controlled. 

The Heart

Hey guys its Sabrina Black;People bring you down and lift you up. Whether it be by lying, describing you with false words, or make your heart soar. Stay strong and believe what's in your heart even though it's cheesy.




Engraved
Take my heart. Look at the damage you have caused. Feel the scars of pain that's left in the unknown past; hear the drum of my pulse as it throbs in your hand.
Look closer. Do you see the graffiti of your hateful words? They have polluted my heart. Words like: “worthless,” “deceitful,” and “shallow.”
My tears let out pain but can't get rid of it. Save me from the dark shadows; unlock the shackles of despair from my wounded hands. Take my heart and clean it from my hate .Underneath is something more than you know, even if you don't see it.

~Sabrina Black APLIW

I Love Her

Hey guys it's Aulene!!!

This piece is written from my friend Brad's point of view. He loves my friend Lexi. However, Conner is the ex-boyfriend who only wants one thing and won't be with her. It's blatantly obvious that he is the better choice, and I just really felt for him and that is where this weeks piece came from.

Have you ever had an experience like this? If so then leave a comment below and let me know.

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I Love Her

I love her

Her skin

Her eyes

Her smile

O god her smile

The way she glows

And just seams so happy

That her spirit

It just seams to sore

I love her

Then you come in the picture

Like nothing happened

Like you are still a couple

Like you did nothing wrong

Like she still belongs to you

You KNOW I love her

You know how I feel

And still you try?

I love her

You still try to hold her hand

You still try to be close to her

You still try to act as if it's okay

But you have moved on

You won't be with her

You only want one thing

You're the classic guy

Not a classy guy

I love her

You push and push

Until you get what you want

She doesn't want to hold your hand

She doesn't want you to smother her

She wants to be loved

She needs to be loved

She gives you so much

And gets nothing in return.

I love her

I am happy

Just to be with her

Her presence is a blessing

Her beauty is infinate

But her pain is obvious

I know you're her everything

So I can relate

Because she's my everything

I love her

I can see the way you used to treat her

You took care of her

I can see the way you treat her now

She's basically nothing

I can see how she should be treated

Better then anyone can provide

She deserves much more

Because she's worth it all

I love her

It seems clear you have moved on

But she hasn't

I know she still loves you

So I won't ruin that

But I know how she should be treated

And I will make sure it happens

I will fly across the world

To make sure it happens

I love her

Don't worry about her

I will take care of her

She is my hopes

She is my dreams

She is my life

She is my love

I am willing to wait

And I am willing to work

I love her

I know she's fragile

I know she's in pain

I am willing to be gentle

I am willing to take it slow

I am willing to wait

Wait for eternity if I have to

Because she's worth it

Because she is my everything

I love her

Her skin

Her eyes

Her smile

O god her smile

The way she glows

And just seems so happy

That her spirit

It just sores

I love her

~Aulene

~APLIW

Gone

Hey guys it's Sabrina Black this weeks piece is about losing someone you love and they walk out of your life with unsolved questions so enjoy!!!

“Disappeared”
Where are you? Can't you see me? Hear my cries? I have so much to tell but no one to share it with. I miss you... Did you forget that I'm important to you? What about the memories we shared? The laughs? The jokes? Or am I just another shadow you wasted your time on? Half of my heart is missing from when you left. All of these questions will never be answered... Leave me and delete me from your life. I don't know you anymore. You're a fraud! You don't control my life anymore! I'm free and moving forward while you're taking the dark path; I'm taking the path with life and truth... What more could I ask for?